10.A Damn Good Disguise
You long for a bar with a quiet room
But no one's gonna treat you like a kid
That way you've got trouble enough
Since you fucked the landlord
You're breaking like eggshells
From under the car door
The grains of regret still blooming in her face
Now nothing is settled so that makes you nervous
'Cause you won't be so lucky
When they figure it out
And your hand moves so slightly
She'd scarcely notice what you call audacious
Dear, I barely count
And I won't be there when you change your mind
But if your heart should change
I guess I might be found
Whether covered up with lies
Under paint that never dries
It'll take a damn good disguise
To live this one down
Now you run very slowly but not without purpose
You step in a verse, you walk always in rain
And me, some small token of your in-affection that lingers
Unwelcome and then drifts away
We deferred to your parents who gladly consented
Though you were pretending and I really meant it
You turn a blind eye to a blank wall
And that's our life
Hey you're killing me with protocol
She acts just like she's seen it all
But I don't think she's seen
This a big shot at the mini mall
You learned it all before you could crawl
It don't make you a genius now
The obsessives tribunal has brought you to trial
For an in gratitude that surprises even yourself
And the things you were given that you claim to find
While you cling to like cancer impeaching your health
And I do not wish this misery upon you or anyone else
That it might desire though
It is my fear, darling, that it will choose you
And it is my fear, darling, that you will requite it
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